Veganuary

In January I followed a vegan diet for the month ( #Veganuary ). It was difficult at first. I was so grateful whenever a restaurant had clear indicators for which foods were vegan. Even more respect for the restaurants that had more than 4 vegan options. I found myself reaching out to baristas and waiters/waitresses…

The cavity of my life : love & loss

Cavity: an empty space within a solid object, in particular the human body I reflect on the days when my entire body felt empty and bare. My heart did not exist other than the moments I needed to ache. My emotions were numbed, every single one of them. I didn’t know joy anymore. I didn’t…

Hypomanic: Who Needs Sleep? I think I do.

I am now certain that I’m hypomanic right now. I’m not even sure how long I’ve been this way. There were identifiable warning signs going back to two weeks ago. I wonder if sometimes I just slide into hypomania. Like, it just progresses you know? How long have I been living here? First you notice you’ve…

Moving with the Universe

When your spirit wakes up, the universe quickly will undulate with you. As you fill your cup, You fill your soul. As you find yourself, You become whole. To live whole heartily You have to feel it all. Shame, love, and vulnerability. Sit with yourself. Feel your heart and spirit lift. Foster self-love. And watch…

Forlorn Attempts at Healing and Self-Love

I didn’t realize how often I was making forlorn attempts to heal, love, and grow. They were hopeless attempts, highly unlikely to succeed because they weren’t backed with truth. I was trying on band aids of all kinds hoping for the right stitch. But then I realized, I have to heal from within. I realized…

Growth – Loving Yourself.

It took me a long time to come to terms with my sexuality, my mental illness, and just my character overall. But this picture represent growth in all the areas describes above. At the women’s march in 2017 I felt empowered. I felt like I understood my political identity. I felt at peace with being…

Coming Out: Why Was It So Hard? Society, That’s Why

In light of wrapping up my semester working at a religious school I feel the need to write about my sexuality. Something I have not written about in the past because I’ve been confused for so long. However, I think I finally am able to accept and embrace my sexuality. I’ve dated men and I…

Live Your True Life(Without Reservation)

Living life reserved. What does it look like? Well, reservation looks like questioning your heart because you’re afraid of what others might say. It’s not raising your hand in class even though you knew the answer. It’s not answering the phone when a friend or loved one calls. It’s not making that bold move because…

My #MeToo Stories

In light of the viral #MeToo movement, Rachel Brathen dedicated her weekly podcast to her own #MeToo stories. #MeToo It baffles me how much I could relate to these stories. Moments when us women are uncomfortable by a man and we freeze. We go through the steps in our minds but our voices say nothing. We…

What Happened? Depression Happened.

We are happy, enjoying our day. Joking and playing and laughing. I have a heavy conversation with a friend and it weighs on me afterwards. I set it aside, push it down, save those feelings for another day. We go shopping, you make a joke that somehow cuts me to my core. Followed by my…

81 Reasons to Be Alive

When I was younger I tried to take my own life, more than once. I ended up in the hospital. In a psychiatric ward. I didn’t receive counseling afterwards, which could have been a pretty grave mistake since I considered trying again many times afterwards. Luckily, my empathy saved me every time. I couldn’t leave…